Not the Best Start Chapter 34

Ethan Shen often wondered why some people chose to commit suicide.

No matter how difficult life is, as long as a person is mentally healthy, what is insurmountable?

Ethan Shen lived for 27 years and faced countless cruel deaths, but he never thought of committing suicide, even when he was at his most vulnerable age.

He has seen countless suicides. Since he was in high school. The shattered bodies that jumped off the building, the corpses that turned pale in the bathroom, the faces that lay peacefully in bed... Too many people choose to commit suicide for too many reasons. Why do most people usually choose to submit rather than fight? No matter how angry they are, it is incomprehensible to avoid fighting or refute in the name of death. Ethan Shen thought, maybe it was because he had seen too many deaths that he had no fear or expectation of death. He had experienced all kinds of pain, and the only goal of survival became resistance - even though he had not seen any dawn of resistance so far. Is all destinies predetermined? Can everyone not escape their own specific trajectory? Can the world only follow its predetermined direction and extend its predetermined path?

Ethan Shen didn't know the answer. His eyes could see a future that others couldn't see, and he could only see a gloomy fate. He couldn't change the future of others, let alone his own future. If he was the only one in the world who could see fate, he would be the only one without a future. Ethan Shen had been trying to change the fate of others in various ways during his long-term thinking, but Ethan Shen gradually realized that the only thing he could change was himself.