Terror From the Feast Chapter 396

Mochizuki's life was indeed very painful, but not physically, but mentally.

The words of his own self in the ice touched his soul.

It was not until now that he realized that he had been avoiding it.

I've been avoiding it for so many years.

It's not about escaping from the fact that his mother died, but the shame that his mother's death in humiliation brought to him.