The Decade Old Love Last Chapter

Beloved wife’s book:

How are you doing after being out alone for so long? Remember to take care of yourself, I am always thinking of you.

Everything is fine with me, and I am very obedient and cooperating with the doctor's treatment. Jing Wen told me that you probably don't want to see me torture myself into this state of neither human nor ghost when you come back.

It’s just that most of the time I really miss you, and every breath I take makes my heart and lungs hurt. But you have been refusing to go home, so I can only live my life slowly by myself... It doesn't matter if you think about it, you won't come back if you don't come back. You used to wait for me, and now I have to wait for you for a long time.

Zhishu, I don’t know why I haven’t dreamed of you for a long time. The more I worry about you during the day, the more white and lonely my dreams become at night. Is it...that you actually don't want to see me again? I also often think of things from the past, and to be honest with you... I feel cruel to myself and feel that it is really unfair to you. I regret it all the time, I hate myself for not being nicer to you, I blame myself for never really pampering you. I now know I was wrong.