I Can Spend Lives Waiting for You Chapter 7

Later, my husband said that the expression on my face that day could be described in four words: despair.

I didn't open my eyes when I heard the door opening and closing. I'm just thinking, if possible, I don't want to fall in love with you at all. Find a girl and walk hand in hand in front of others openly. However, no one gave me a chance. The first time I liked someone, I fell in love with you.

If I had known earlier, I would not have come to Changsha. If I had known earlier, I would not have allowed myself to meet you.

If, eleven million ifs.

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I moved back to the dormitory and started to live my college life seriously. I also began to learn to treat my husband as a classmate--a classmate I didn't know. I didn't talk to him or see him. I don't want to let my heart hang in the air, so I force myself to make a decision.

Sleeping talk is the main entertainment after lights out. While talking to his classmates, he thinks about what he is doing now. Sometimes I would get up and go to the water room. When passing by my husband's dormitory, I would prick up my ears. Occasionally, my husband's voice would come out from inside. I couldn't hear what he was saying, but I was happy in my heart.

I would also pretend to mention my husband casually in conversations with my classmates. I felt a hidden joy when I heard his name spoken from other people's mouths.

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A few days ago, I asked my husband why he wanted to be with me.

He only said: "You are cruel enough. You can break it off as soon as you say it. You don't even blink when you see me on the road."

I said, "Then you suddenly realized that you couldn't live without me? You really were a B!tch. When someone was chasing you, you ran away without a trace. When someone stopped and walked back, you started chasing me again."

"It's not X. Let's think about it. It's only a lifetime. It's better to find someone you can tolerate." My husband later clarified, "I'm not chasing you. At most, we hit it off."

It was my birthday in my junior year of college, and my husband came too, and everyone drank a lot.

I took a moment to stand outside by myself, recalling the warm attitude my husband showed just now.

My husband walked up behind me and put his hand on my shoulder...

Many accidents have a new beginning like this.

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I used to be almost desperate to seize every moment with him, so that I would have something to remember in the future. At that time, I didn't dare to think about "eternal and eternity". I was so happy that I wanted to die at the climax.

Life will not always be smooth. We are all ordinary and we live like ordinary people, quarrels, cold wars, warmth and care. No matter what happens, as long as two people are determined to work together, they will dare to go Go down.

I often think of Zhang Ailing’s words, which are also very suitable for us.

He is just a decent man, and I am just a selfish man. Perhaps, in this world, there is still no place for people like us.

However, there should always be room for two ordinary men.

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There was a big sale in the supermarket, and my husband brought back a transparent pot. It can be used for both boiling water and cooking. It is very crystal clear.

It was already past dinner time, but I still couldn't wait to fill half the pot of water and plug in the plug.

After a few minutes, small bubbles began to appear. The water is getting hotter and there are more and more bubbles. I lay aside and watched the bubbles rise from scratch, from small to large, one after another, standing like a string of pearls in the water, full of surprises. My husband urged me to fill it with water several times, but I always said to wait a while.

Only half of the pot of water was boiled, so I reluctantly unplugged it and poured the water into the thermos.

My husband found it funny and kept laughing at me, calling me a country bumpkin.

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As for a man, if his face is rounder and the lines are softer, he will look much younger than his actual age. I suffer from this and hate my face deeply.

When I was taking the college entrance examination, I went to a bookstore to look for reference materials. The clerk asked me if I was going to take the high school entrance examination.

In my senior year, I met some chattering girls in school. They pointed at me and said, "Do you think that boy is a freshman or a sophomore?"

I was depressed for several days after I came back.

My husband's sister also asked her husband in a low voice: "Aren't you classmates? You are about the same age. He looks so young." I heard clearly from behind.

I didn't feel anything bad before, but now I feel heartache because I have always dreamed of making myself look more mature and deeper.

I have tried many methods and heard that chewing gum can build muscles and slim down the face. I went out of my way to buy it, but my temples hurt from chewing it. Later, I still felt that my future was bleak, so I ate them all like candy and vomited after losing the taste.

When I told my husband that I wanted plastic surgery, "I don't need anything else, just two cuts on my face."

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For Level 4, the two of us faked things like crazy during that time. There are three ID cards alone, and his name is on my mugshot. When I was walking with my husband, I saw a paid toilet with a sign on the door saying: Free with senior citizen ID card.

My husband said, "Tomorrow we will also make a fake senior citizen ID card."